24 Things I've learned about myself

Tomorrow is my 24th birthday – I'm scared. Mostly, to what my 14 year old self would have said to me. I'm hoping that ambitious teen, is not too disappointed that I am her, and she is me; and we have  been battling it out together for 24 years! Wow – I feel a bit old.

What I've come to grasp over the years, is that knowing yourself always seems to triumphs over self doubt. It's taken me years to hold my hand and greet myself as my friend and not my enemy. So here  are the 24 wonderful things I have learned about me:

1) I get stressed very easily- It's something I'm working on, but I kind of internalise it. No one can ever tell I'm stressed, unless if I disclose it.

2) I really work hard- When I am enjoying something, I want to do my very best in it. I want to be an overachiever.

3) I'm not good with makeup- I love makeup and I actually wish I had some sort of clue of how to look like I was just 'beat'.

4) I love my family- Although I know I don't always get along with them, I love them so much and I cherish them dearly.

5) I love food- Eating is a past-time – I'm not going to deny it, it's taken me years to admit to myself; that I'm allowed to say I enjoy eating!

6) I binge watch american TV shows- I honestly do not know what I would do without the internet and streaming. My life would be beyond boring if it wasn't for things like Teen Wolf and The Flash!

7) I love fashion but fashion hates me- This is my double ended sward, I adore fashion, I've been working in the industry for 3 years but buying clothes that suit me is hell. Literal hell.

8) I think a lot- I would say 90% of my life I live in my head; I'm always somewhere else. That has been a recurrent theme in life.

9) I'm never satisfied- I think if I settle, I become bored. I always want the best things, that's why I am never really satisfied.

10) I hate going on dates- Yes I said it, if we could just skip the dating part and just be the one already. Lets start the relationship – you know – lets be grownups?

11) I hate cleaning- I confess this is no secret. I've known this of myself since birth, but it's just nice to continue to know this so maybe it might change.

12) Getting published is my biggest dream- Beyond everything in the world I have learned about myself, I know getting my novel out there will be my biggest accomplishment.

13) I dream big- I blame my parents for installing this in me. But they've always made me feel like I had no boundaries. So I don't see any.

14) I don't care for people's opinion- When I was younger I was really fussed about how other people viewed me. Then I realised their opinions only mattered if I valued them. Thats how I stopped caring.

15) I hate any form of bulling- There was once a time when I was bullied, and it's left a big impact on my life.

16) Writing is my chill game- I can write for hours and lose so much hours without even noticing that four hours has just flew by. Writing is very cathartic, it cures me of my poison.

17) I like to make playlists- Really, I have a playlist for practically any situation, cleaning, working out, reading books, writing – you name it I got it.

18) I critique my appearance- I think a lot of people do it, but I think I do it too often.

19) I like designing- I don't mean clothes, more like graphic design, I'm not an expert but I very much enjoy creating beautiful imagery.

20) I don't like feeling cold- Does anyone?

21) I Could live without drinking- But I'm from the Caribbean, so I have to drink at any family occasion – that would go out the window.

22) I like silly jokes- I can laugh at the most basics of jokes, in fact I laugh at my own. Saddo.

23) I am sassy- People can mistake my sassiness as me being rude, but it's just me being a class A sass-queen. HA!

24) I am me- This is something I struggled with. I used to wake up in the middle of the night and think why am I me? But I'm on the acceptance stance now, I am me and I kinda like it!

That's it folks, in the 24 years I've been alive; here is a small glimpse of things I've learned about myself. Let me know what you think!